OPEN LETTER TO MY FATHER:

To my father,

I can’t imagine how you feel sometimes. I am almost 18 years old, but at times it seems like I know more than you and I know that intimidates you because I don’t ask you questions about how the fridge works or which medicine cures which type of Cancer anymore but I never have to pretend I’m smarter than you because I know you will always be the smartest man I know.

I know I don’t make it easy for you to talk to me, my passive-aggressive behaviour comes from my mother and perhaps I can’t see eye to eye with you on certain things because you’re stuck in your ways and I, in mine. You taught me to question everything, including oneself at times. It is because of you that I have opinions, beliefs and perspective because you allowed me to defend them against the world and practice them as long as they did not harm anybody.

While I’m awakening from the ways the world has shown me, self involved in my own path, I know sometimes you wish I were little again and didn’t fight you when you tell me to eat rice or talk in Kannada, perhaps because we didn’t get to spend much time together when I was a little girl. As a woman, it almost seems impossible to tell me what to do because both you and mumma made sure I am a self-assured and independant women but when things get rough I’ll always need you by my side.

You were never the father to be involved in everything I did, you wouldn’t ask me each night whom I met or what I did although you did enforce your political and religious views on me, which I accepted because they were always argued with logic and reason, like most things you told me.

Everyone always told me I’m like you; I have your eyes, your wit( Although, I’m better), your resilience, your ability to look at the world in the kindest eyes each day and we are both reckless to the point of self-destruction. Even though you’ve done a lot of stupid mistakes, I’m proud to say you’re my dad even when you’re sometimes unreliable.

You have always been yourself regardless of what others have said, many have judged you but no one can say you don’t have a good heart. For me, I know you’ll do anything.

I always try to fight the fact that I don’t need you because I wanted to prove to myself that I was independent which is probably why I taught myself to do many things. I taught myself to ride the bicycle, I taught myself to work the fuse box and I taught myself to cook. We are closer than most people who live with their fathers are because we have an honest and an open relationship.

I know I give you a hard time. I never pick up your calls and I almost never tell you when I’m angry because like you, I’m naive about emotions and can never accept my vulnerabilities. It is from you that I picked up my ability to understand art in depth, you spoke about movies and books and took inspiration from them, something that I often do. You made sure I understand what true education is and always criticized me when I behaved in a frivolous way because I now understand life is more than clothes, makeup and drinking.

You treat everyone the same way, whether they are an auto-driver or a CEO and you never take yourself seriously. I remember, once you calling me from your hotel in Chandigarh to inform me about the minor earthquake that had occurred and while I was worried, you were laughing about how everything around you was falling apart or that time your factory in Baddi caught a fire and you just laughed at your ill-plight. I asked why you weren’t worked up and you simply said “How does that help in fixing the damage?” ( In Kannada, of course)

When I was in the 5th grade, in the midst of our regular banter, you said        “Everyone lives. Everyone gets a degree.  Everyone gets a job and Everyone reproduces but you got to do something more than that!” Perhaps, that struck a chord with me and ever since I’m on my hunt for that something more.

I know you try to be as nonchalant as possible when it comes to my academics because you think I have the ability to succeed with or without a strong academic background. You have never pressurized me but I remember your face when my 10th board results were out. You were sitting on the sofa, watching news while mumma and I were glued to the laptop, refreshing every minute but the minute the results were out and I was reading out my marks, you jumped out from the sofa and I remember your face that afternoon, even though you said your demeanor wouldn’t change if I scored a 50%, I remember your face that day and I always will.

I may be like you in many ways but I’m not you. I’m more than you and less than you.

I wanted to write this for a long time and this is not something I thought about today because it was father’s day, a day which you and I both agree is materialistic and frivolous but I can never tell you these things looking at you, it’s just how we are built. We write because we can’t express.

 

QUICK KOREAN SKINCARE ROUTINE

Hello, everyone. Hope you’re all doing well, I’m so sorry for being inactive and I was supposed to do a Korean Skincare haul but I already started using them, so I am going to talk you through my quick skin care routine using Korean  products.

My mother was in South Korea last month and she bought home a ton of products and I wanted to incorporate them in my skincare routine because Koreans are known for their skincare and beauty products and I wanted to experience it myself.

Before I started using these products, my skin was going through a hard time, I was breaking out a lot and I had a lot of marks, I could not control the breakout with my regular products and it was just getting worse day by day but it’s been more than a month now and my face is clearer than before and brighter.

So, I start off by using the Rice water bright cleansing form from the FACE SHOP, so most of the products are from Face Shop and after trying their products I’m in love with the brand, I completely switched my skincare routine, this is by the best face wash I have used, it’s a cleansing as well as brightning foaming cleanser, it has a creamy texture made of mild rice water and other natural ingredient. It cleans your face without drying it out and skin looks fresh . The cream formula lathers easily and is not harsh for sensitive skin, As for the Brightening factor you do see the difference in about a week if you use it with the cleansing water from the same range but don’t expect the difference to be dramatic . If your looking for a mild cleanser which does its job well this is the product to go for.

I finish it off with the Clean Face Mild Toner from the Face shop, I used to never bother with a toner but now I’m taking care of my skin better and I absolutely love this, it again feels very light on my skin like rest of their products and it works great if you have large pores, they tighten them and helps you prevent breakouts and helps firm your skin.

Once a week or more, I use the sheet masks, now these are amazing, I love sheet masks and my mother bought a ton of them so depending on your skin type and skin concerns you can pick your sheet masks, they instantly brighten my skin.

So, now about where to buy them, In India, you can get them online at http://www.nykaa.com/the-face-shop-brandstore?intcmp=brand_menu|new|the-face-shop

So this was about my quick skincare routine, let me know yours in the comments and your take on Korean Skincare.

 

STLYLING LINGERIE AS OUTERWEAR

Kendall Jenner, Bella hadid maybe amongst the many  celebtities pioneering the  lingerie as outerwear trend, it’s something that I have been seeing more and more recently and it’s definitely one of those trends, that is chic yet sexy. 

I have put together a few looks using polyvore app, I feel like Lace bralletes or sheer tops should be based paired with a denim skirt, satin pants, ripped jeans or even culottes. I love this statement denim skirt from Gucci, it’s simple yet colourful. 

Black embroidered Lace top- Alexander McQueen.

 www.alexandermcqueen.com

Embroidered denim stain mini  skirt – Gucci

http://www.Gucci.com

Beige Lace bustier- La Perla
http://www.farfetch.com

High wasted pastel patent trousers – top shop
http://www.topshop.com

Sunglasses- Chloe Carlina round glasses 

http://www.mytheresa.com

Mellow world crossbody bag blue bag- ebags.com
Small beige shoulder bag – hm

http://www.hm.com

Beige ankle strappy  slip-on – http://www.nordstorm.com

Floral heels- Charlotte Olympia Tropicana silk sandals 

http://www.matchesfashion.com

With the advent of athlesure being Incorporated into daily fashion, there’s a consequent shift from high street fashion to more bold, flattering, feminine looks and this is where lingerie as outerwear fits right in. 

Black mesh dress with body suit – hm

http://www.hm.com

Red tassel earrings- Oscar de la renta 

http://www.lancecrawford.com

Red shoulder bag- Gucci 

http://www.farfetch.com

Burgundy strappy heels- http://www.romwe.com

Adidas superstars – http://www.zappos.com

Cut off denim shorts- Re/Done 

http://www.Stylebop.com

Lace bra over white tee- boohoo 

http://www.boohoo.com

The question arises how much is too much and till how much can we push it? Lace bralletes, sheer slip dresses, mesh skirts are all a staple of this trend but it has to be styled in a manner and sometimes, it may not workout and you may end up looking completely trash and vulgar but it’s worth a try. 
Let me know if you love this trend or hate it in the comments below.

Yours,

Praagna.

Enquires- praagnaprasad@gmail.com

Products I regret buying

hello, everyone I hope you are all having a great weekend. I wanted to talk about some of the products that did not work for me and were a complete waste of money. If you have had similar experiences with these products, let me know in the comments below.

1) L’oreal True Match foundation

So, I bought this over a year ago because I had heard so many people talk about this foundation and I paid almost 1,000rs for this product. To begin with, the foundation is slightly light for me and it is really difficult to blend in, it gives a very light coverage and when I tried to build it up, it gave me a cakey finish but probably the biggest reason for me to dislike this product is it made my skin breakout really bad. I would not recommend this to anyone. 

2) Purifying Spot concealer by Kaya Skin Clinic. 

I have been breaking out a lot lately and I tried a lot of products during that time and this was something I always wanted to try, I have tried their cleanser and toner from their anti-acne range and I love both of them and I have repurchased both, several times so naturally I had high expectations about this and I was so uttrerly disappointed. The concealer is a liquid based tonic that you have to apply directly on your acne using an absorbing applicator ,which in my mind was very unhyegynic and this did not work at all for me, my sports didn’t reduce nor did they get better. It is quite pricey as it details for about 800Rs but I got it on sale from Nykaa.com.


3) Ultra lip cream from Makeup Revolution

I bought this about 2 months ago in their reddish-pink shade, I absolutely loved the shade but it has one of the worst packaging, the cap case off the lipcream fell off within a few days and the product was not long lasting at all, its a complete waste of money. 


Let me know your worst purchases in the comments below 

REVIEW: THE BIO OIL for stretch marks, scars and dry skin

If there’s one skincare product that has been on everybody’s shelf for the past one year, it has to be BIO OIL, I have heard so many great things about it and wanted to try it out for the longest time, so I have extremely dry skin and it’s gotten worse over time and almost all the body lotions were too mild or would immediately make me sweat like a pig( I have hyperoxia, which is a condition where your palms get sweaty for no absolute reason) I was in my local makeup store and my mother suggested I pick this up for my extreme dry skin so I did and this was my experience with it:

Product description:

According to the company  “Bio Oil is a specialist skincare product formulated to help improve the appearance of scars, stretch marks and uneven skin tone. Its unique formulation, which contains the breakthrough ingredient PurCellin Oil, is also highly effective for aging and dehydrated skin. PurCellin Oil reduces the thickness of the Bio-Oil formulation and makes it easily absorbed” and the shelf life of this product is 36 months which in my opinion is a long time.

Packaging:

The actual bottle of Bio-Oil is placed inside a white carton and accompanied by an instruction manual (it even has diagrams demonstrating the application of the product. The bottle is simple, it contains a pinkish hue to it giving it some pop but it’s simple and in my opinion it serves the purpose of selling it self.

My view:

As, I mentioned I have severly dehydrated skin but once I started using it, my skin feels much better, after I bathe I use the oil on my body like a regular moisturizer, it has a light consistency so it easily goes deep into skin cells. It is non-greasy which is very important for me because otherwise I start sweating. The most unusual thing I noticed about Bio-Oil is that it has a pinkish-orange tone, which turns completely transparent as soon as it comes outside the bottle. There is a very mild fragrance, which reminds me of herbal beauty products. No matter how dry your skin is, 2-3 drops of the product is enough to hydrate your skin, it also fights aging, scars and stretch marks.  I absloutely love this product, it’s resolved my issue of dry skin and the days I forget to use this, my skin feels a lot worse, unevenly dehyrdrated and coarse.

Price:

450rs for 60ml( I suggest you buy the smaller one and test it out but since you need to use very little of the product, this should be fine)

The benefits and uses of Bio Oil Body Oil:

  • It comes in a sturdy and convenient plastic bottle packaging with a screw-on white cap and a hole to dispense the oil. Travel-friendly, does not leak at all.
  • it has a very light, runny texture, thin consistency- not at all sticky or greasy- sinks into skin instantly.
  • Skin looks plump and radiant instantly without looking/feeling oil unlike using coconut or olive oil.
  • It worked amazingly on my stubborn dark circles since neither my sleep hours nor my diet underwent a change during its use.
  • It also improved my skin and faded my acne spots mildly.

The cons of Bio Oil Skincare Specialist Oil:

  • Might be heavy for oilies like me in summer.

Would I recommend?

100 percent, this is my holy grail product. If you have scars, acne, dehydrated skin or you’re pregnant, this is a must buy because it is proven to work. Apply it twice a day for 3 months and you will see the results.

 Rating- 4.9/5.

Let me know if this was helpful or your experience with Bio oil in the comments below

email-praagnaprasad@gmail.com

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BEGINNER’S MAKEUP ESSENTIALS GUIDE

Hello everyone, I’m really sorry for not being active on here, I’ve been extremely busy these past two weeks but I will have a post out every week from now on.

Today, I thought I’ll share some of the products that I use and love which is easily available and affordable for anyone trying out makeup because I have been there and it’s really important to pick the right products because an intensive beauty routine is expensive and you don’t want to spend money on products that suck and all of the products mentioned below will help you get that No Makeup Makeup look so that you can master the whole trying not too hard look

1) Cetaphil Moisturizing Cream:

I have already spoken about this cream and it’s one of the best face moisturizers I have used, whether or not you use makeup, this is a must have and I have been using this since the fourth or fifth grade. If you aren’t sure how to start applying your makeup or you want an alternative for a primer, this works fine for all skin types especially for those who have dry skin. You can ask for it in any of the drugstore or the pharmacy store near your house.

2) FOUNDATION- Maybelline Fit Me Matte + Poreless foundation

Fit Me Matte + Poreless from Maybelline New York goes beyond skin tone matching to fit the unique texture issues of normal to oily skin for the ultimate natural skin fit.While some foundations can exaggerate pores and oily skin, this gives a very natural subtle matte look, it gives medium coverage in terms of skin correction but it is easily build-able and extremely easy on the pocket which makes it suitable for a beginner.

BUY IT HERE- http://www.nykaa.com/maybelline-new-york-fit-me-matte-poreless-foundation.html?root=catg&ptype=product&bannerparam=banner&id=31074&nav_path=nude-face-makeup

3) CONCEALER-  L.A GIRL PRO CONCEAL HD

If you have a lot of spots or uneven skin tone, then you probably need a concealer to get that flawless look, I use it on my spots and under my eyes after applying my foundation, the L.A GIRL PRO CONCEAL HD is one of the best drugstore concealer I have used, they have a huge range of colors for different skin tones and colored products to conceal reddness, spots etc. It is suitable for all skin types and it includes a small brush for easy application.

BUY IT HERE- http://www.nykaa.com/l-a-girl-pro-conceal-hd.html?root=catg&ptype=product&bannerparam=banner&id=40862&nav_path=nude-face-makeup

4) Compressed Powder- RIMMEL STAY MATTE COMPRESSED POWDER

If you aren’t a huge fan of foundation, you can skip it and just use the concealor and a really good compressed powder to even out your skin tone and accentuate your features. I love the Rimmel compact because it is very light on my skin, For the price, you have to shell out for this. It’s definitely a steal, the only problem is the availability of the correct shade for Indian skin tones. It gives a matte finish as the name suggests so you can use this to set your makeup and the best thing about this is it does not crease at all and it is extremely cheap.

BUY IT HERE- http://www.nykaa.com/rimmel-stay-matte-pressed-powder.html?root=catg&ptype=product&bannerparam=banner&id=8757&nav_path=nude-face-makeup

5) EYELINER- MAYBELLINE  NEW YORK COLOSSAL KAJAL SUPER BLACK

I usually just use this for my waterline but sometimes I use it as an eyeliner too and it gives a great finish, it is waterproof and smudge proof and it lasts me a whole day. This is the second release of their colossal range kohl and this one is darker and smoother but there isn’t really that massive change in both these products they are almost the same.

BUY IT HERE-http://www.nykaa.com/maybelline-new-york-colossal-kajal-super-black.html

6) EYE SHADOW PALLETE- MAYBELINE NEW YORK THE BLUSHED NUDES PALETTE-

For anyone who wants to start their makeup collection, this palette is a must, it leans towards  more neutral shades with warm undertones but you can create a wide range of looks with this.The Blush Nudes Palette is a range of 12 rose gold-infused shades, designed to create looks with hues of sensuous rose, tempting taupe and provocative plums, the palette enables you to either chose a matte or shimmer look for your eyes which is why this is my favourite, it is not extremely pigmented but it is build-able and it is worth the price.

BUY IT HERE- http://www.nykaa.com/maybelline-new-york-the-blushed-nudes-palette.html

7) Mascara- Maybelline Volume Express Hyper curl

I don’t use a lot of Mascara because I have naturally long lashes but a lot of people prefer this over any other eye product and the Volume Express Mascara is definitely the best Mascara I have used, It has a  smooth formula for this price range. It clumps a bit on second layer application but otherwise it’s a great product with brush designed for curled lashes. The brush design also helps to brush out each and every lash hair neatly.

BUY IT HERE-http://www.nykaa.com/maybelline-volum-express-hyper-curl-mascara.html

8) LIP BALM- Maybelline baby lips

I know most of my products mentioned are from Maybelline because it is one of the best drugstore makeup brand, hands down and you need to use a lip balm whether you wear makeup or don’t, their entire range is pretty cool, they are available in  fresh poppy colors and are really moisturizing and give you a subtle glow.

BUY IT HERE- http://www.nykaa.com/maybelline-baby-lips-for-all-occasions?intcmp=nykaa|top_picks|maybelline-baby-lips-for-all-occasions

So, these were my basic essentials for anyone getting into makeup, let me know what are yours in the comment section below.

Yours,

Praagna.

Send me hate/love/enquires – praagnaprasad@gmail.com

Amazon Prime Vs Netflix

Hello, everyone. I’m sorry for not being extremely active. I’ve been very busy these past couple of weeks and it’ll only get worse. I recently signed up for an Amazon Prime membership. I have been using Netflix for quite a while now, so I thought I’ll talk about it in detail.

Before I actually start, I want you all to know that the content on each is curated for each different country and I live in India, so whatever I talk about applies only to the users of India.

WHAT THEY OFFER

NETFLIX: 

One of the best things about Netflix is their Original content, which is some of the best shows and probably better than shows on TV. Netflix India has a very limited library; almost nothing compared to their USA and Canada distribution which is why I was not a fan of it. They only have the really popular shows or movies but then again, they haven’t acquired license for a lot of shows and some of the shows only a limited number of seasons are available but they’re also pretty young compared to the US, they only launched in India, in June or July year and they have grown their collection since then but I would rather watch it online.

AMAZON PRIME :

Amazon Prime is slightly different from how Netflix works because it has shopping benefits as well as digital content. In terms of shopping, you get one-day or two-day free delivery on most items and you get first acess to Amazon lightening deals and offers and then you have unlimited streaming of video which includes TV shows, movies etc. I love Amazon Prime’s collection, they  are still new and they are constantly expanding it but so far, I prefer their content over Netflix because it has a lot more shows and movies, if you’re somebody who watches a lot of Hindi movies like I do, this one is for you they have some of my favourite movies and I prefer Hindi movies to English anyday which is why I tend to use Prime more, their english collection is not that great, Netflix defintely has better content but Amazon offers standup specials of 14 Indian comedians and if I’m being honest I only signed up for it because of it and I have loved every one of their specials.

PRICING

NETFLIX: Netflix has 3 plans and is the most expensive medium for digital content.

Netflix in India comes with three different subscription plans – Basic, Standard and Premium. The Basic subscription plan starts at Rs 500 and comes with no support for HD or Ultra HD video streaming. It will let you watch unlimited movies and TV shows of your choice, but limits simultaneous screens to just one.The Standard subscription is chargeable at Rs 650 a month, which in addition to the Basic plan gives you HD viewing and the ability to watch on two screens. So the plan allows you to share your subscription with one family member or friend who can stream on Netflix simultaneously without paying extra.Netflix Premium account will set you back Rs 800 per month and will give you access to Ultra HD content, and allow up to three other family members and friends to stream content at the same time, which is a total of four screens simultaneously.

On the other hand Amazon Prime Video subscription has a flat out fee of Rs 499 per annum, and is part of the Amazon Prime membership for the e-commerce giant in India. This comes up to around Rs 42 a month. The Amazon Prime membership rates are expected to go up to Rs 999 annually, which will come down to Rs 83 a month – still a fraction of what you pay for Netflix.You need to remember that with Amazon Prime subscription, you also get guaranteed free one-day, two-day and standard shipping, while also giving you 30-minute early access to lightning deals on Amazon India website. You and your family members can watch Prime Video on three different screens simultaneously with a single membership.Best bit is Amazon Prime Video content is available in HD and Ultra HD to all Prime users using the service.

WHAT I PREFER AND WHY:

I have already spoken about the lack of Mass content on Netflix India although they do offer shows like NARCOS, ORANGE IS THE NEW BLACK, HOUSE OF CARDS, THE GOOD WIFE etc and they also have a lot of documentaries, there’s this documentary series called ‘Abstract’ which is based on design and the industry that is based on it, which I loved and there’s also AMERICAN CRIME STORY, the infamous OJ trial and some mainstream movies that are always playing on ROMEDY NOW but I feel like it’s too early to get the most of Netflix offers since it doesn’t have a lot of shows that I watch, if you’re somebody who loves original content and you would prefer watching everything a click away, Netflix is for you. It’s easy access to your favourite shows and it;s available on both IOS and ANDRIOD just like Amazon Prime but I prefer AMAZON PRIME because it’s way cheaper, more the benefits and  it caters to the Indian market better than Netflix.

Excerts from a book I won’t write 

When I was going through a brief insomniac phase, my grandmother had told me to count backwards, from 100 to 1, and that by the time I would have gotten to 1, I’d fall asleep. And I always did. But this one specific night, I couldn’t and it was the night she was taken into surgery. I was drained and exhausted, both physically and mentally, but I could not get my body to rest. My grandmother’s old tricks had started to give up one me just like her health had on her and eventually, her odd counting habits consumed her vital signs which continually descended and finally stopped at 1.

I have inherited my father’s identical memory but that comes with a contingency which is that it is limited to random thoughts and events that have no significance in my recurring day-to-day life. I wanted to find a meaning of this; of why the only advice she ever chose to give me was on how to fall asleep. The night I was asked to see her for the last time before they declared the time of death, I counted from 100 to 1, hoping my mind would be clear of all thoughts and it would turn out to be a terrible dream but it did not. In hindsight, when I think about it, she passed on her resilience and her ability to detach from the world to me with her counting habits in a way she did not realise.

Just like the numbers, I too am fleeting from time, descending by each breath and whenever I’m in an unlikely situation, I count backwards and instantly my brain reciprocates by finding a way to get out of it. Only after years of doing it involuntarily, I learnt that it was my grandmother’s form of escapism from the reality, and at that point, I had no idea about the depth it held. The counting has taught me more than it should; it’s a constant reminder that I’m an infinitesimally small being in this huge galaxy and my problems are smaller than me. It has made more immune to the pain around me without desensitising me and maybe it is an over-analysis and a desperate measure to hold on to something of her that I can influence in my life but it makes sense in my head. The words she said that night with a disdain smile, I will hold them with me ignorantly.

It is probably the most selfish thing to wish to find purpose in somebody’s death but human beings are the most selfish people, they suffer silently and vehemently and ultimately leave but the responsibility of the weight of their pain is passed on to their kith and kin. I want the satisfaction of being influenced upon, so I can pass it on and hope my grand-daughter finds some depth in my foolish words whispered at midnight.