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In my entire years of existence, I have dealt with a lot of things  and I have kept a lot of things to myself even though I could express them because, it’s just the kind of person that I am, I kept so many secrets from others that now all I’m left with is a web of hidden things about myself that nobody knows because I have never allowed myself to embrace it, I only show what puts me in a good light, even my shortcomings are so delicately exposed that there’s a strength in acknowledging them. I scream about my vices because I have more hidden darkness that makes my vices seem insignificant.

I’m so tired of being in the position that I am, I want to scream things, like I just want to yell at people but I can’t. I have made so much progress in my life only to stop at this point, I want to move on from whatever is holding me back and just run, like I want to run towards progress not stand in a water booth on the way and pretend to make a move, I’m so afraid of failing that I stopped making an effort to take part in the race. I push people away because I don’t want to be pushed away and I know it’s stupid but it’s hindering my growth and it’s gotten so bad that I can’t even see the road anymore, I’m just stuck in a web of fallacies. I’m too smart to be throwing away opportunities like this, it’s out of my character but then again, what is my fundamental character? I don’t even think I have a type. I’ve made a habit out of this, of seeking for help from everywhere instead of focusing on what the problem is, I have come to know that answers lie within me and that nobody will help you with it not even the ones you think will. So, it’s better to throw those self-help books and not take everything seriously because I know it will be alright in the end and I will figure it out.

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Everything you need to know about Yoga:beginner’s guide

I have been practising yoga for over a decade now, and it is a very important part of my life. It doesn’t matter where I am or what I am doing, yoga gives me the opportunity to switch off and focus entirely on my body and my breath. Yoga allows me to meditate and reflect on what’s important in my life. It is also great for core strength and maintaining agility

-Miranda Kerr, supermodel.

If you have been reading my blog, you would have known that I have been having a lot of health issues and concerns over the past 10 months and I’m also in my senior year of school which can get pretty stressful at times and I would get severe headaches, a consistent-nauseated feeling and my skin would break out and it was getting to a point where I was so frustrated all the time and I could not help it, I hate being unproductive and cynical. Nothing makes me more unhappy and I had to find a way to change all of this, I could not find the way to get myself to go to gym or I did not have time and everything was just getting too overwhelming for me.

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Recently, to help my acid re flux symptoms get better, I started doing yoga. I started with no intentions and expectations because I live in India and Yoga is not some cool exotic thing, literally everyone here practices it and it’s a part of my culture and heritage that I look forward to exploring and learning more. I started slow with just 20 minutes of slow restorative yoga and just a few sessions in and I could see a tremendous improvement in my behavior and my body reception, it may sound like I’m exaggerating and I’ve probably annoyed my mother too much by talking about how it changed my life but it is true and I want to scream it out loud so everyone can hear.  My headache diminished and finally disappeared, my symptoms got better, my body was more receptive to food and my behavioral patterns were no longer irritable and irrational.


Derived from the Sanskrit word yuj, Yoga means union of the individual consciousness or soul with the Universal Consciousness or Spirit. Yoga is a 5000-year-old Indian body of knowledge. Though many think of yoga only as a physical exercise where people twist, turn, stretch, and breathe in the most complex ways, these are actually only the most superficial aspect of this profound science of unfolding the infinite potentials of the human mind and soul. The science of Yoga imbibes the complete essence of the Way of Life.

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One of the beauties of the physical practice of yoga is that the poses support and sustain you no matter how old or young, or fit or frail, you come to your mat. As you age, your understanding of asana becomes more sophisticated. You move from working on the external alignment and mechanics of the pose to refining the inner actions to finally just being in the asana.


Yoga has neveImage result for yoga benefitsr been alien to us. We have been doing it since we were a baby! Whether it is the Cat Stretch that strengthens the spine or the Wind-Relieving pose that boosts digestion, you will always find infants doing some form of yoga throughout the day. Yoga can be many things to many people. We are determined to help you discover your “Yoga Way of Life!”

Benefits of Yoga:

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  • Increased flexibility

  • Increased muscle strength and tone

  • Improved respiration, energy and vitality

  • Maintaining a balanced metabolism

  • Weight reduction

  • Cardio and circulatory health

  • Improved athletic performance

  • Protection from injury

  • helps deal with anxiety, stress and tension

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If you are a beginner like me and want to get started, you can enroll for yoga classes near your localities or you can learn it and do it by yourself. There is a ton of videos and apps on basic yoga. My favourite Yoga app is Down dog. 

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I have listed a couple of articles down below on how to get started and a few excersizes you can try at home and get started.





A/N- let me know if this article was helpful in the comments below, I want to know what you think of Yoga and let me know if you have any queries about this in the comments. I could make a part two, if you guys are interested and talk in detail about it.

love and light,


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A full-proof way to Create a skincare routine that works for you

A/N: Hello everyone, hope you are all doing well. I apologize for being a little inactive in here, a lot has been happening and I rarely find the time to blog but I love blogging so I really want to make time for it and continue sharing my journey with you all.

I used to be really bad with maintaining my skin, i literally did nothing and I had acne for almost through 9th and 10th grade but after I visited the dermatologist and ever since my skin cleared out, I have been religiously taking care of my skin.


In terms of the amount of products you use, the less the better. I use you 3 given products at all times and that’s about it. A good cleanser, toner, a moisturizer and sunscreen(before I leave my house) and I have been using this for a long time, sometimes I like to pamper myself so I use sheet masks or face masks which is good for your skin. If you are under treatment for any skin concerns, stick to your doctor’s recommendation. The easier your routine is, the more likely you will follow it.

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What works for me may not work for you and vice versa, everyone has different skin and identify your skin type, whether it’s dry, oily or a  combination and accordingly pick your products. Stick to the same products for a better result, I have observed that if we keep experimenting with skincare, it may lead to a breakout or an imbalance in your routine and change the texture of your skin. Most of my products are Korean, my mother bought a ton of Korean Skincare products when she visited south Korea in the summer but you can get a few Korean products on

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You can literally find hundreds of natural face masks, soaps recipes online and see which ingredients will work for your skin tone and type. A lot of the brands are making a shift towards organic and sustainable cosmetics and even though it is slightly expensive, it is worth the splurge since there are no harmful chemicals being used and it can really do wonders for you skin if it’s going through a rough phase.

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These were my golden rules for maintaining a skincare routine, let me know yours in the comments below. I would love to know what your thoughts are.




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A letter to a friend

My letters to you are one you must never read,

It’s impulsive, jarred and sincere,

yet could never justify your sensibilities.

you are a person so far beyond description,

that I can never write about you,

even though I want to scream it  out loud,

I could never articulate what is it about you,

I do not trust my words and letters,

they are conflicting, like your feelings,

but I want to write about you,

your dark past, your soft unspoken voice

that trembles at the thought of my attention,

but it will never be a satisfying descriptive of you,

your simplicity is a complication for I cannot comprehend it,

my letters for you are the ones you must never read,

because I write too much about you.




Posted in lifestyle

Study with me: Tips and tricks

Hello everyone, today I thought about blogging about how I study or go about it. This is definitely a self-learning process for me and I would love to know if this helps you.

Just to brief you all, I have college and I come back home around 4 pm, so I start studying around 5.30 -6.00 after I drink my tea, of course.

Use a planner:

I cannot stress upon this, it’s really important to use a planner. The first thing I do is make a list of all the things I’m going to be studying, for this I use an inexpensive pocket notebook where I write down what I study everyday. Using my planner , I make monthly or weekly study goals so you know how much you have to study before an exam and it keeps you more organized.

I’m going to be studying Chemistry today. I usually prefer using more than 1 book, I always have a couple of books so that depending on my understanding capabilities I use the preferred books, this really works for me.

Use a highlighter, Pencil to highlight an important points, formulae. I consequently try to condense the chapter into flash or que cards

If you’re always on your phone and constantly getting distracted then use this app called study helper, it’s amazing. You enter the numbers of hours you plan to study and it locks your phone until you reach your limit.

Download the app here-

I’d like to recommend this App to you. STUDY HELPER: The Essential MUST HAVE App for Students and Office Workers The only app that disables push notifications while calculating your studying time.

Paste all your formulae, important theorems on your study wall to help you memorise them

Organize your workspace, this will help you study more.

Keep some healthy snacks, water on your desk so you can have something to much on, I always keep sone nuts, water and hand cream! I hate dry skin and it bothers me a lot when my hands are dry.

This is my study routine, it’s pretty simple and basic. Let me know yours in the comments below.


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How to be More Productive:

Hello everyone, Today I wanted to pen together a list of things I have discovered for a positive and productive day over the course of time and they have been really helpful for me.


This one is pretty obvious but if you start your day early, you will have a longer day thereby getting more work done, For ex: The days I wake up around 7 am, I get a lot more work done than days where I wake up around 10.30-11.

choose tea over coffee:

I’ve never been a huge coffee-drinker, I have always preferred tea and my whole house ( including my maid and cook ) drink tea, it’s just a healthier option.

Make lists/ use a planner:

I don’t know how people get work done without making lists or time table, it doesn’t have to be fancy and bright, a piece of paper would serve the purpose. I highly recommend this because it helps you stay organized and gives you a clear idea on what you have to do.


It’s extremely important to be physically active, especially when you have a stressful weak and you want to unwind, I usually go for a run or hit the gym but you could do whatever you like.

Clean your room/desk/workspace:

This is really important because the cleaner your desk is, the more prone you are to getting work done. De-cluttering can also be a great stress-buster and by the end of i you will have a pretty room!

That’s it for my post today, let me know what are your methods or mantras to have a productive day!

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Around Mid-March this year I was diagnosed with GERD( Gastro-esophageal reflux disease) or commonly called acid reflux and I did get an endoscopy, my doctor said it was drug-induced since I had been taking antibiotics and my eating habits were questionable. It’s basically a lifestyle disease or a condition and it’s quite common


So I felt nauseated for a long time and I would feel queasy and irritated, I had frequent heart burns and severe headaches, my sister( who is a medical student) suggested I had acidity so which is when I went to the doctor. I also put on 3 kgs and felt bloated throughout.

Treatment and Recovery:

The main cause of my acidity was because  of my unhealthy food habits, I ate out a lot and I’m Indian which means I eat a lot of spicy food and my doctor also felt it was stress induced since I’m in my final year and things can get crazy.  I was on a pill for almost 6 weeks and after I went off the pill, I was alright but if I have to be consistent since it is a lifestyle disease. Even though, it’s not a fatal condition, it does cause hindrance to your day-to-day routine and you always feel tired and bloated which is why I made a conscious effort to eat healthy.

What not to eat:

There isn’t a lot of restrictions and you can can consume all of this once you’re off the pill and depending on how your body responds you can go back to the way you used to, it’s only a matter of time but when you are undergoing treatment or you feel queasy, follow this:

  • CHOCOLATE: I cannot stress this enough, chocolates are the worst for GERD sufferers.
  • COFFEE/TEA- 1 or 2 cups when you’re done with your treatment should be enough.
  • SPICY FOOD: it makes your symptoms worst

Other than the foods mentioned above you can pretty much eat anything else, if you are suffering from Gerd or acidity, it’s not the end of the world. EAT CLEAN and you shall be fine.




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On future plans, sadness and exsistence

I’ve always said I never knew what I wanted to be when I grew up because I was insecure of my own ability to live up to my own expectation of my aspirations. The more I learned about myself, the more I had to unlearn and in this process of self-critical learning and unlearning, a free spirited mind was trapped into the claustrophobic mind of a timid person.

When you’re only a few months short of turning 18, you believe that life is a lucid dream, a conflicting illusion of what is and what will be, countless time I’ve misunderstood and misinterpreted my so called “calling” in life which brings me to a fundamental question, Is there a purpose?

I want to do everything and that’s where I get caught up, my words don’t form in a comprehensible manner. I dumb it down and over-complicate the simplicity of being. I hate it when I see oblivious, ignorant people because they look so happy with their one-dimensional approach to life but there is something that is so poetic about sadness that people keep dwindling in it and romanticize it maybe because sadness is the only emotional that is truly universal and most often, self-inflicted. You can mask it, deny it and run away from it but it is embedded in each and everyone one of us waiting to be triggered.

A lot of times, I am vain. I believe in “look good, feel good” and I don’t think there’s anything wrong with it even though it’s somehow always attached negatively to a person. You need to bathe, shave, clothe yourself because all there is left outside of it is madness and suicide.

I still get asked a lot, on future plans and college and I still haven’t figured it out and the reason is still the same which makes me realize I have been having the same battle with my self for 10 years now and that scares me because as a Sagittarius I’m constantly drawn to moving forward and leaving things behind but maybe my issues of yesterday packed itself in a suitcase and travels with me everywhere that it just added emotional baggage. Currently, I’m moving at a never ending-crawl hoping I wouldn’t be frozen in time with no sense of direction. I keep saying that whatever is happening will not matter when I’m 38 with wrinkles and ungrateful children but who the fuck knows what will matter and won’t at 38, hell who knows I’ll even make to 38, my friend’s sister didn’t not even make it to her college graduation and when I know that life is short, why do I still keep making long term plans?

As an only child, I was used to attention, I need it at times to remind myself that I’m losing track of my path, I have always needed attention because there is no greater desire of the human heart than to be fundamentally understood. Coming back to the question on my future, I don’t know what I want, I don’t know if I’m fit for cooperate or exquisitive enough to work in a creative environment. All I know I never want to be that old person that gets annoyed with loud music, bad food and the news. I want to be that person that is kind to everyone, who doesn’t abandon books half way and still believes that life is a lucid dream at 38, even if I’m in the worst condition. I don’t want ever want to feel the weight of the day when my face touches the pillow at nightfall instead always search for the silver lining.

I swear, I’m not just saying this because I re-read Marakumi and feel pretentious. All of this is arising out of a burning desired to be understood, challenged and from a deprivation of an intellectual conversation, questions and a ton of questions that I either already the know the answers of or I do not wish to know the answers. It’s not a phase, trust me. It’a way of existence.

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To my father,

I can’t imagine how you feel sometimes. I am almost 18 years old, but at times it seems like I know more than you and I know that intimidates you because I don’t ask you questions about how the fridge works or which medicine cures which type of Cancer anymore but I never have to pretend I’m smarter than you because I know you will always be the smartest man I know.

I know I don’t make it easy for you to talk to me, my passive-aggressive behaviour comes from my mother and perhaps I can’t see eye to eye with you on certain things because you’re stuck in your ways and I, in mine. You taught me to question everything, including oneself at times. It is because of you that I have opinions, beliefs and perspective because you allowed me to defend them against the world and practice them as long as they did not harm anybody.

While I’m awakening from the ways the world has shown me, self involved in my own path, I know sometimes you wish I were little again and didn’t fight you when you tell me to eat rice or talk in Kannada, perhaps because we didn’t get to spend much time together when I was a little girl. As a woman, it almost seems impossible to tell me what to do because both you and mumma made sure I am a self-assured and independant women but when things get rough I’ll always need you by my side.

You were never the father to be involved in everything I did, you wouldn’t ask me each night whom I met or what I did although you did enforce your political and religious views on me, which I accepted because they were always argued with logic and reason, like most things you told me.

Everyone always told me I’m like you; I have your eyes, your wit( Although, I’m better), your resilience, your ability to look at the world in the kindest eyes each day and we are both reckless to the point of self-destruction. Even though you’ve done a lot of stupid mistakes, I’m proud to say you’re my dad even when you’re sometimes unreliable.

You have always been yourself regardless of what others have said, many have judged you but no one can say you don’t have a good heart. For me, I know you’ll do anything.

I always try to fight the fact that I don’t need you because I wanted to prove to myself that I was independent which is probably why I taught myself to do many things. I taught myself to ride the bicycle, I taught myself to work the fuse box and I taught myself to cook. We are closer than most people who live with their fathers are because we have an honest and an open relationship.

I know I give you a hard time. I never pick up your calls and I almost never tell you when I’m angry because like you, I’m naive about emotions and can never accept my vulnerabilities. It is from you that I picked up my ability to understand art in depth, you spoke about movies and books and took inspiration from them, something that I often do. You made sure I understand what true education is and always criticized me when I behaved in a frivolous way because I now understand life is more than clothes, makeup and drinking.

You treat everyone the same way, whether they are an auto-driver or a CEO and you never take yourself seriously. I remember, once you calling me from your hotel in Chandigarh to inform me about the minor earthquake that had occurred and while I was worried, you were laughing about how everything around you was falling apart or that time your factory in Baddi caught a fire and you just laughed at your ill-plight. I asked why you weren’t worked up and you simply said “How does that help in fixing the damage?” ( In Kannada, of course)

When I was in the 5th grade, in the midst of our regular banter, you said        “Everyone lives. Everyone gets a degree.  Everyone gets a job and Everyone reproduces but you got to do something more than that!” Perhaps, that struck a chord with me and ever since I’m on my hunt for that something more.

I know you try to be as nonchalant as possible when it comes to my academics because you think I have the ability to succeed with or without a strong academic background. You have never pressurized me but I remember your face when my 10th board results were out. You were sitting on the sofa, watching news while mumma and I were glued to the laptop, refreshing every minute but the minute the results were out and I was reading out my marks, you jumped out from the sofa and I remember your face that afternoon, even though you said your demeanor wouldn’t change if I scored a 50%, I remember your face that day and I always will.

I may be like you in many ways but I’m not you. I’m more than you and less than you.

I wanted to write this for a long time and this is not something I thought about today because it was father’s day, a day which you and I both agree is materialistic and frivolous but I can never tell you these things looking at you, it’s just how we are built. We write because we can’t express.